The distance grows
Time apart seems like death
Knowing that the space will spread
Until the gap becomes a black hole
Feeling as though the tunnel is too long
To reach you
Yelling out your name
An echo my only answer
Throwing out a lifeline
Filled with love
Begging you to grab it
In order to save you from
Your lonely solitude of depression and despair
But the bottle
Battles me each day
Taking you further and further into the blackness
I don’t know how long I can hold on
Without eventually following you into the abyss
In order to be with you
If it’s the only way to hold you.
Reading a woman’s rag mag is quite an eye-opener and being a woman I thought I had the whole woman thing figured out. Come to find out I know squat about being a real woman. I discovered I was so far out of the loop that I almost wasn’t a woman.
Here’s a list of the finer points of being a woman that educated me.
Women over forty ARE SEXY! Who knew? And dammit, all this time I’d been thinking wrinkles, creases, saggage and stubbornness were turn-offs. Come to find out a lot of men are excited by a woman that has some life experience and isn’t afraid to show her true self. In fact, it seems to take the pressure off of them to not be so concerned about how they look.
Alpha women are the new alpha male. An independent woman who can take care of herself, is assertive, aggressive and opinionated seems to be a much sought after trait. And it only took fifty shades of grey to proof it.
That a woman’s body is her temple…she just needs to know how to accessorize it properly.
with a sheet
and of course…a pair of wings.
Make-up is now done in a way that it needs to look like we’re not even wearing make-up…despite the layers we put on to make it look that way.
Exercise is still one of the healthiest ways to stay young. Just stay away from gyms where young people go.
But if forty is considered sexy, damn what the hell is sixty gonna be? So friggin’ excited! I’m gonna rock my independence by wearing what I feel like…
throw away my make-up and dance the night away…
Yeh…it’s gonna be good.
your eyes see a picture of perfection
but buried beneath the beautiful
package is something outside the truth
secrets, lies, deception
all tumble over one another
in a wildly beating heart
a heart panicked at discovery
and the inevitable destination
of a life carefully crafted
a smile tricked out at the corners
speaks of a lover kept secret
eyes gazing into a memory of
citrusy bedrooms and paisley bedspreads
where two bodies writhe in desperate abandon
chasing away lost hope and daily drudgery
looking to find a past youth
and forgotten excitement
but ends with guilt weighing heavily
as true love smiles tenderly
from a portrait of perfection.
From my book:
Tears of sadness are a river that turns into an ocean.
A smile that lifts only at the corners when asked, “How are you doing?”
Lies behind the smile that answers, “I’m fine.”
Questions bounce through her head.
Love, why has it gone? Where did it go?
Yesterday they were together, they had loved so deeply.
Listening to the radio, every song reminding her of him.
Screaming as the pain rips into her soul. Their love was supposed to last forever.
Alone in their bed. His warmth just a memory.
Facing the truth. Their needs were not the same. They could never have been forever.
Learning to love herself, to find who she was, to live on her own terms.
Tears of release and peace.
Full circle she has come.
From my book:
It doesn’t have to be said
It doesn’t have to be written
Words are just words.
It’s a touch
It’s simply being
That you don’t have to be together,
To be together.
It’s not that hard to love.
Because it just is.
I was afraid, until I wasn’t.
I thought I needed someone to pay my way, until I didn’t.
I thought I was invalid, my opinions worth nothing, until I learned my value.
I believed I wasn’t strong enough, until I became strong.
My pride and dignity took a blow, but I came out fighting.
Regret and indecision were my middle name, until I changed it.
I worried that love may never come my way again, but found it within.
Be happy and happiness will find you.
You’re already there
Before I can even
You stole it and made your mark
A heart that was hidden apart
From beauty and kindness
Eyes shuttered and blind
Hope emerged from dark
Ready and willing to start
A new life
Unafraid to begin
And light filtered in