The Bottle

The distance grows

Time apart seems like death


Knowing that the space will spread

Until the gap becomes a black hole

distant 5

Feeling as though the tunnel is too long

Too far

To reach you

distant 6

Yelling out your name

An echo my only answer

distant 2

Throwing out a lifeline

Filled with love

And hope

Begging you to grab it

In order to save you from

Your lonely solitude of depression and despair

distant 3

But the bottle

Battles me each day

Taking you further and further into the blackness

distant 4

I don’t know how long I can hold on

Without eventually following you into the abyss

In order to be with you

If it’s the only way to hold you.

distant 7



Sexy? Hell yeh!

womens magazines

Reading a woman’s rag mag is quite an eye-opener  and being a woman I thought I had the whole woman thing figured out. Come to find out I know squat about being a real woman. I discovered I was so far out of the loop that I almost wasn’t a woman.

Here’s a list of the finer points of being a woman that educated me.

Women over forty ARE SEXY! Who knew? And dammit, all this time I’d been thinking wrinkles, creases, saggage and stubbornness were turn-offs. Come to find out a lot of men are excited by a woman that has some life experience and isn’t afraid to show her true self. In fact, it seems to take the pressure off of them to not be so concerned about how they look.

football man

Alpha women are the new alpha male. An independent woman who can take care of herself, is assertive, aggressive and opinionated seems to be a much sought after trait. And it only took fifty shades of grey to proof it.


That a woman’s body is her temple…she just needs to know how to accessorize it properly.

kim and sheet

with a sheet


a scarf


and of course…a pair of wings.

Make-up is now done in a way that it needs to look like we’re not even wearing make-up…despite the layers we put on to make it look that way.

highlighting and contouring

Exercise is still one of the healthiest ways to stay young. Just stay away from gyms where young people go.

But if forty is considered sexy, damn what the hell is sixty gonna be? So friggin’ excited! I’m gonna rock my independence by wearing what I feel like…

wear wut i feel like

throw away my make-up and dance the night away…

Yeh…it’s gonna be good.

so good





Portrait of Lies

your eyes see a picture of perfection

but buried beneath the beautiful

package is something outside the truth


secrets, lies, deception

all tumble over one another

in a wildly beating heart


a heart panicked at discovery

and the inevitable destination

of a life carefully crafted

sly smile

a smile tricked out at the corners

speaks of a lover kept secret

eyes gazing into a memory of

citrusy bedrooms and paisley bedspreads

where two bodies writhe in desperate abandon


chasing away lost hope and daily drudgery

looking to find a past youth

and forgotten excitement


but ends with guilt weighing heavily

as true love smiles tenderly

from a portrait of perfection.


From my book:

The Journey

the journey

Tears of sadness are a river that turns into an ocean.

A smile that lifts only at the corners when asked, “How are you doing?”

lying smiles

Lies behind the smile that answers, “I’m fine.”

lost love

Questions bounce through her head.

Love, why has it gone? Where did it go?

Yesterday they were together, they had loved so deeply.

Listening to the radio, every song reminding her of him.

Screaming as the pain rips into her soul. Their love was supposed to last forever.

Alone in their bed. His warmth just a memory.

facing the truth

Facing the truth. Their needs were not the same. They could never have been forever.

Learning to love herself, to find who she was, to live on her own terms.

Tears of release and peace.

peace 2

Full circle she has come.

the journey 2



From my book:

It’s Just Love

love letters

It doesn’t have to be said

It doesn’t have to be written

Words are just words.



It’s a touch

A hug

An embrace


look of love

A caress

A look


whispering lovers

It’s listening




pure love

It’s giving

Without taking


full moon

It’s simply being

And knowing

That you don’t have to be together,

To be together.



It’s not that hard to love.

Because it just is.


Fear is a Four Letter Word

I was afraid, until I wasn’t.


I thought I needed someone to pay my way, until I didn’t.

in the arena

I thought I was invalid, my opinions worth nothing, until I learned my value.


I believed I wasn’t strong enough, until I became strong.

she could

My pride and dignity took a blow, but I came out fighting.

strong woman

Regret and indecision were my middle name, until I changed it.


I worried that love may never come my way again, but found it within.

love yourself

Be happy and happiness will find you.

happy girl